059, the Chinese character wenwu sitting female life

My personality is extremely low and extremely arrogant, extremely low self-esteem, from broken homes at a young age and painful childhood memories, is not recognized by people respect and sense of failure, the sense of shame when beaten, the depth of heart forever, be unable to fill the black hole.Extremely arrogant, from shi to FangKuang again, always feel talented than other people, why are mixed who also not.Now much more negative, no to mention his own shit.Like wu song sitting of the doomed to not much, in terms of talent, who has more talent, nor do they become a fortune to make a living.

For the first time ten years (6-15)

Is which, my mother not dozen I don't scold me, but my father always hit me.Hit I have no feelings for him, hit even if he left home on a business trip for two months or even half a year I didn't feel, hit I think even he suddenly sudden death street I will not drop a tear for him.So my relationship with my parents, it is very bad.Mainly is the father.I have no feeling in life, is to read an occasional book all day, feeling paralyzed by reading a book.The study also make, a hierarchical.I was 13, 93 rise.And because they didn't divorce, I don't lack of money to spend.Gastrointestinal can work, but is swollen ear cyclical sick, in the middle of the inflammatory swelling, pain I cannot sleep.One eat ice cream a day seven or eight root, eventually lead to gastrointestinal broken.Every morningHave loose bowels, now also is such.Really should be the Chinese that sentence: youth so sick.Extreme lewd, saw the handsome boy will be fascinated.Life like a handsome boy.But can never be expressed.

The second time (16-25)

More miserable, entrance examination in 96Go to schoolSpring, with the students suddenly didn't increase university enrollment expansion, failure is inevitable, success is impossible.To go to art college, was mad of my family and I don't want to go to, then refused.In 97 to continue to take part in the entrance examination, and did not even cherish, art itself is not hard, so fail again.The same year parents' divorce.My dad then found a little wife.These things happen in me two times before the entrance examination.Then my day is equivalent to no.In 98, attended a private art school first to shenyang, to oneselfThe test, and is the first time with my entrance examination to the same department, costume design, and is also a specialized subject, (it's a joke, was admitted to didn't go to, now again to test) for the first time examination only test of two families, extreme blow, so pack to go home, not willing to read again.2000 have a computer at home, so all day what also not stem, is holding the computer play Internet, Internet completely obsessed, become a net worm.To date, too.What to read out all drawing hobby.If you ask me what hobby now?I answer only one word: surf the Internet.In October 2001 came to shenyang to read in Chinese study, oneself to continue wasting their parents' money.Encounter a failure of love, and then lost to a man's passion and love.See through life.2003 father finally stop supply to me, let me go home.The second time in the parents, are doomed to live on their parents, during this period health improved markedly.Swelling of ear infections is basically not committed.So stomach every day.